frustrated with apps....parents....etc

so...after my lovely phone conversation with mom i feel like giving up on this whole process. yes, i know slc is expensive and yes, i'm not confident on getting in. but i still want to try. it just this business of the breakdown and how they think being close to home would actually be good for me. it won't. i need to go away. i've been needing that for a long time.

nevertheless, i'm trying to appease them by finding safety schools nearby. maybe i'll just apply to every school in the midwest.

i want to crawl into a hole and pretend the world stopped. maybe then i wouldn't have to deal with anything.

i wish aw were back.