Yearnings...

I'm settled in to my life in France. I laugh at my language stumblings and ease my way through the streets. I dress the part and manage to blend in until I speak. Maybe that will change, but I will always be foreign. If someone asked me what I like most about being here- I'd say my schedule, attitude, etc. I'm so relaxed here. I never worry about the mundane like I did in the States. I'm social much more frequently. I seem to go out all the time, plus I've been able to travel.

I keep trying to search for something. I'm certain that I know what it is...every time I see a couple I wish a little bit. I don't like that; I've managed to change and redefine myself as an individual. I don't need a guy, yet the added benefits are something I wouldn't turn down. There's nothing wrong with companionship, is there?

Prospects? Yes, no, not really.... I met a guy name JF at work on Monday. It seemed awkward to pursue it, but perhaps I'll get lucky. JC also from work....but that would be extremely messy. AW lingers from home. We talk frequently and I wonder how that will end up. He's coming to visit in January and I'm really excited about it. R still exists, but I have no idea until spring/ summer. Meanwhile, I go to the occasional bar/ club and flirt. I need to do that more often. Its a damn good ego boost.

I'm going on vacation next week to Germany and Austria. The plan is to take in the culture in Vienna and party in Frankfurt. I don't speak any German.