I feel the need to define myself. To find aspects and amend them. Not sure why exactly except because of AW and this whatever the hell it is. But after talking with him last night I realized that even if we were to end up in a relationship nothing would change between us....nothing.

So some guidelines for myself and my view of self. I want to be self confident without the reassurance of others. Far too often do I look for compliments from the boys I'm dating. I don't need them. I know I'm beautiful. I like being independent and not tied, but at the same time have an object of my affection. I like being sexually experienced but don't want to be labeled as a whore. So instead I'll not be timid and enjoy things. I'm not to be caught up in worrying about being hurt. I'll just live life and not over analyze things....especially "relationships".

But I realized I have to be writing a paragraph so I can go out without guilt tonight.