late, but not really

for some reason the house has the air of making it appear after midnight, when in reality it is not yet 9:30....so early. man, how long ago was it when i would just be preparing to do something...when i would fall into my bed at 2, 3 in the morning. i have no stamina for that right now. i'm like an old person, or an infant. i miss college.

and now i've lost my train of though...converstation with ex boyfriend, the one before A. i'm always surprised when he wants to talk to me. considering he dumped me, but that was a long time ago...i was so young then in so many ways. honestly, i wouldn't mind just seeing him again, though we were never good at holding a conversation. we used each other for a different reason.

one week...this time next week i'll be with AW doing whatever....hanging around his house or still at his grandparents'. in the meantime i'm going to fret over preparations for next semester and leaving here until May.