late night rehearsal, again

so, i'm stuck here for the second act because we're blocking the curtain call. here i sit at 1 o clock in the morning, i could be getting some sleep right now. but hey, it could be much, much worse. i had my huge stuperstious fuck up, so I'm ok now. The show will be fine tomorrow

A talked to me online today while I was trying to write my e-mail for acting class. it surprised me how the conversation was refreshing instead of forced. i think we could truly be good friends now, and i'm not just saying that. i still think he loves me, but it's diminished to a respect love instead of romantic. that is something very good that i can deal with. maybe i will see him once or twice when i come home this summer. wait, he'll be at basic...i'll write.

Because of my hectic schedule, I've spent very little time AW this week- save occassional meals and classes. The lack of attention made me somewhat unhappy. But I guess it keeps irking me that he keeps bringing up AC, a girl he's going to cast in his show. Granted, she's absolutely perfect for the part, gorgeous, etc. He just keeps joking about it like she's his new obsession. I play along, of course. How could I not? But it just annoys me that I seem to be hearing about her constantly for the last 2 days. Jealousy is an ugly thing. But then he brings up the fact that LU has a huge crush on me. Something very apparent in AW's eyes....I'm rather ignorant about that sort of thing. I can hardly supress a smile (good thing his back was to me). So I guess the 2 of us are unconciously getting back at each other.

My fatigue is setting in. I don't know if I can keep this up much longer. I'll probably go to sleep after finishing this post. Damn show, I'll be so happy when its over on Saturday.