goddammit fucking mother cock sucker

i'm angry....i feel like yelling and throwing things. i feel like screaming at the top of my lungs and cursing over and over again....endless obscenities....

this fucking paper.....this fucking school work....these fucking standards....i don't fucking care....i don't

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

why me?

why can't i just get my brain around this mother fucker?

why can't i just write my goddamn paper?

why can't i hear that voice of reason?

why can't i organize this son of a bitch?


fffffffffffffffffffffffffffffuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuccccccccccccccccccccccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkk!


i hate this....already one breakdown today and i'm headed straight for another one, though one of a completely different nature.

i can't write

i can't think

i can't sleep (not that i've tried)

i want to run far away


fuck.