brink of finals

tomorrow commences finals week. a week from today i'll be back in minnesota. i'm not sure how i feel about that. when school was closing in around me i really wanted to leave. now, i want to be away. i just want to go somewhere else. this is going to be the only summer i spend at home. every other summer i'm going to work or go to school or something. i am not going back again. it's just a freshman thing.

i've been going off campus a lot lately. it saves me.....keeps me from tearing my hair out. i'm tired of school, but i hate being so cramped.


I'm oddly wishing for L and S. I e-mailed S last week...telling her I'll be in Portland briefly next fall. I haven't seen her since SLH 2001, so long ago. we've changed so much....and for me they've been the biggest changes of my life. i'm unsure what that meeting would entail. but i hope that we have enough other kindred qualtities that didn't change with growing up that much more. L at least is closer to me....distance-wise. I miss them both. I want a female confidante. AW suits me well....especially since we've been able to spend more time together.

Math final tomorrow...sleeping to be done....studying in the morning